Maria Shriver sought out existence advice at a convent after her marriage to Arnold Schwarzenegger ended.
At some stage in Shriver’s appearance on the Making Feature with Hoda Kotb podcast Monday, the journalist told host Hoda Kotb that she began feeling fancy she “had the freedom or permission” to be herself when she filed for divorce from Schwarzenegger in July 2011, after 25 years of marriage.
“I first felt fancy, ‘Oh I might well well higher scurry and determine fancy, what is the truth?’ ” Shriver, 67, acknowledged on the podcast. “I went to a convent — I did so many things — however regarded as one of the crucial things I did is I went to a convent, a cloistered convent, to be in silence and explore for advice.”
The journalist and author shared that the convent’s Reverend Mother gave her permission “to exit and change into Maria,” all the diagram in which by her check with — something she acknowledged she’s by no methodology published earlier than.
“The Reverend Mother there acknowledged to me at the very cease, she acknowledged — and I even come by written about this, however I have not shared — she acknowledged, ‘I enjoy you came right here making an are attempting to gain permission,’ ” Shriver told Kotb, 58.
Maria Shriver; Arnold Schwarzenegger.
Rodin Eckenroth/Getty; Alex Bona/SOPA Images/LightRocket by potential of Getty
“I felt fancy I used to be in a scene out of The Sound of Music,” she added. “She says, ‘You can’t advance are living right here, however you discontinuance come by permission to exit and change into Maria.’ I used to be fancy, sobbing. I used to be fancy, ‘Who is that?’ ”
“I enjoy the word permission… I had by no methodology given myself permission to basically feel, to be vulnerable, to be old fashioned, to be brought to my knees, and the arena did it to me,” Shriver acknowledged of the trip. “And then I used to be fancy, ‘K, God, let’s scurry. I’m gonna take this and be taught the complete lot I’m able to about my characteristic and what I want to be taught.’ ”
By no methodology omit a fable — look at in for PEOPLE’s free on daily foundation e-newsletter to cease up-to-date on the ideal of what PEOPLE has to provide, from juicy star news to driving human interest tales.
In utterly different locations in the interview, Shriver acknowledged that both her well-known upbringing as a member of the Kennedy family and her marriage to Schwarzenegger, 75, customarily made her basically feel “invisible.”
For added on Maria Shriver, listen below to our on daily foundation podcast PEOPLE Each and every Day.
“I would gain myself getting mad at these that came up and did now not acknowledge that I existed after I used to be standing next to Arnold, or after I used to be standing next to my uncle or anyone,” she told Kotb.
Arnold Schwarzenegger and Maria Shriver marry in 1986.
“And then I [realized] they had been instructing me a lesson that it be now not about whether they glance me,” she added. “Discontinuance I look me? Am I viewed to me?”
Shriver and Terminator broad name Schwarzenegger first met in August 1977 at the Robert F. Kennedy Tennis Tournament after being introduced by NBC’s Tom Brokaw. The old fashioned couple married in 1986 and had four formative years together: daughters Katherine, 33, and Christina, 31, and sons Patrick, 29, and Christopher, 25.
Shriver filed for divorce in July 2011 after 25 years of marriage. Two months earlier than the submitting, Schwarzenegger publicly admitted he had fathered every other son, Joseph Baena, 25, with the family’s longtime housekeeper Mildred Baena.
The old fashioned couple’s divorce used to be finalized in December 2021; Shriver and Schwarzenegger come by remained unified as a family since their breakup. In September, they posed with son Patrick Schwarzenegger at a birthday dinner in a recount shared to his Instagram after his twenty ninth birthday.